Untitled Wants...

Watery eyes gaze up to the sky,
A heart full of hurt,
Mind full of thoughts...things unchanging.

People who make you think,
Dreams unfullfilled,
Sighs fill the air...love untaming.

Hands shaking in the night,
One last sip,
Take you to oblivion...smiles fake.

Longing just to be wanted,
How could you not see,
A mistake she made...that mistake me.

Selfish yearnings cast upon you,
Dissapointments crash,
Couldn't see the sunshine...becomes dark way too fast.

Didn't want much,
But, my want was vast,
Just be interested...want me at last.

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The letter...

Today I wrote you a letter. A letter you will never get.
Today I wrote you a letter. A letter I will never forget.
I sat upon this very chair and slowly bowed my head.
Put pen upon the paper and just let the writing begin…

I wrote to you of days gone by. Of the things that you have missed.
I wrote to you of memories, of times we both cherished.
I explained the life I now lead, without you by my side.
I described the ocean you used to love, of the coming of the tide.

In the letter I poured my heart, and left you some lonely tears too.
In the letter I heard your voice talking back, I knew I hadn’t completely lost you.

I took this letter and put it in an envelope, an envelope with no address.
I took this letter to the shore with a bottle, a bottle that could accept natures stress.
I slipped in my letter and sealed the top, and let if fly with a vengeance.
I watched it fall and bobble to the surface, watching until I could only see its top edges.

Today I wrote you a letter. A letter you will never get.
Today I wrote you a letter. A letter I will never forget.
I sat down on the sand and wept and slowly bowed my head.
Raised my tear stained face to the heavens, and finally accepted your death.

You see, today I wrote myself a letter. A letter of goodbye.
Today I wrote myself a letter, to finally stop living a lie...

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